My Dearest Daughter,

I love you my beautiful and oh, so precious daughter. I miss you immensely and cannot wait to see you in heaven.

I remember the day you were born. You were in a big hurry to see this big world and so it was, you did not wait. I had you in the doorway of the hospital. Nurses were scattering to our attention and there you were as if to say…"Here I am!"

When things finally settled down in our room, you nestled at my breast. I could not help but run my fingers through your beautiful blonde hair. I thanked the Lord for my perfect daughter of whom I loved with every fiber of my being. You wrapped your tiny hand around my finger and I had the feeling that all the world was ours. I truly was blessed.

When you opened your eyes, they were as blue as the sky on a warm summer day. Your hair was the color of sunshine and your smile would melt the coldest of hearts. I thought to myself, I have the most beautiful daughter in the world and I knew even then, that you would be uniquely special and would make a difference in all the lives that you touched.

As you grew, you were pretty in pink. You loved pink lace dresses and patent leather shoes with taps. You would dance and tap like the world was your stage and you were the star. You were so beautiful.

You were a great child to raise. You were fun loving and your laughter was contagious. You were also very headstrong. If you wanted to do something, nothing nor no one could stop you. In the same token, if you didn't want to do something, nothing nor no one could make you do it.

You were independent and through your teen years, you were rebellious, too.

You were flirty, but you were so cute that you got away with being flirty.

As you grew into an adult, we were inseparable. There's something to be said about unconditional love. We had that. No matter what and no matter where, we loved each other through the good times and the bad. We supported each other in all of our endeavors.

You were smart and you had wisdom beyond your years. You didn't think so but I always knew it.

You were an advocate for many and you treated all people equal. You always saw the good in everyone, even when no one else did. You loved people and you were always willing to help others in their life's journey.

You were brutally honest. When you made mistakes, you stood up and took responsibility for them, You learned from your mistakes and made changes from them. Therefore, your mistakes were not in vain. That is what I call wisdom. Some people never learn that in a lifetime. You had wisdom in your young years.

When you were sick, you would lay your head in my lap. I would run my fingers through your long blonde hair as only a mothers comfort can do. It always made you feel better.

The night before your untimely death, you were laying on the couch, ready for bed. You looked like an angel to me. I sat down and lay your head in my lap. I ran my fingers through your beautiful hair. God gave me the opportunity to tell you how much I loved you. I held you tight that night and told you how proud I was of you and how beautiful you were. We told each other how much we loved each other. I hugged you and smelled the scent of your beautiful hair. Vicki, that felt so good that I laid your head in my lap the next morning and told you I loved you again. I never knew that would be the last time I would be able to do that.

Oh, how I yearn to hold you again. I miss you so much. I feel like my heart is broken into a million peices…never to be mended again. Without you, part of me is gone. I will never be the same.

When the sun is shining in clear blue summer sky, I think of you. I can almost picture you in the heavens. Dance baby, for the heavens are your stage now.

When the pain is too much for me, I open my bible. In it is your hair that I saved from your hairbrush. I hold it close to my face and close my eyes and dream that you are here with me. I can still smell the scent of your hair.

I love you immensely and miss you the same. I can't wait to see you in heaven, my beautiful daughter. Save a place for me. I love you forever.

Victoria Knight